12 year Anniversary

I can't believe that Jake and I have been married for 12 years!! We had such a fun weekend. Thank you so much to my sister for watching my kids on Saturday and then Jake's Mom and Dad for taking the kids for the night and all of Sunday!! Jake and I went up to the Anniversary Inn in Logan. It was such a fun ride up there, talking about the last 12 years and all our memories. We have had SO many GOOD times, and some not so great times, but both have made us who we are and we wouldn't change anything. We went to Boondocks and raced on the tracks, bowled, mini golf, laser tag(which I kicked every one's butt at), video games, and more. We went to lunch, dinner had a relaxing evening. Woke up and chilled and then took a long drive home with lunch and then picked up the kids! It was such a needed R&R. Our room theme was the Pyramids of Egypt. There was an amazing tub, and then funny decor all over. It wasn't the best designed room, but we didn't care. It was the only room left in the cheap price range and it was perfect for us. In the last 12 years: Together we have had 7 surgeries We have two amazing children We have had 15+ different vehicles. We had a motorhome, a little trailer and now the trailer we have currently. We had two little mopeds, a bigger moped, Jakes Harley. We owned a Bluewater boat. We owned 2 Polaris 4 wheelers We have lived in Draper, Bountiful, West Jordan, West Valley and now Herriman We have had too many dogs to count. Sammy, Sheriff, Shelbie, Clohie, Gage, Ellie, Maverick (current dog). Jake has had 7+ different jobs. He has now been in Law Enforcement for the last 10 years. I have had 7 different jobs and now I am a stay at home Mom while running our business. We have been on 3 cruises, to Cancun and then several Vegas and local outings. We have had so much fun together. Then adding two kids to the mix has been such a wonderful experience. Jake is such a great husband and even a better father. He works so hard for our family. I am so very thankful that I married Jake. I couldn't ask for anyone better. We have so much fun together. I love spending time with him. We are both crazy and I'm sure we drive people crazy, but we are so happy with every decision we have ever made.

This is Jake and I when we were dating.  We drove down to St. George to visit his sister Alison.  We shared our first kiss and talked about marriage.  At that point I knew that Jake and I would get married!

 After Jake had proposed to me.  I was so happy!

Our engagement picture.

 Our wedding day.

 Our honeymoon in Jackson Hole Wyoming.

 Our first Cruise.

 Our first Cruise

 Our dog Sammy and us.

 Our Cruise with marshall.  I was also on clomid, so I was a bit grumpy on this cruise.

 Our family of 3.

 Marshall and Kambria.  We sure love these two kiddos.

If you have not stayed at the Anniversary Inn its a must.  They have themed rooms.  We waited to book at the last minute so we didn't have a choice, there was only one room left at the lowest price.  So we had the pyramids of Egypt.  It was nice, but nothing like other ones we have stayed in. 

They give you two slices of cheese cake and sparkling apple cider.  The cheese cake is divine.  In the morning they bring you breakfast.  We had a cinnamon roll, bagel and cream cheese.  Hot cocoa and apple juice.  Also so yogurt parfaits.

Our room had this huge tub in the bathroom.  The water came out of the snakes mouths, it was super nice.  The bed was super comfortable.  The rose petals were an extra nice touch :)

Me getting ready to kick some butt at laser tag!!!

 Jake and I have this tradition.  Every over nighter we go on we have to stop and get IBC cream soda and dove chocolate.  This is Jake getting wasted on cream soda :)

 Thanks Jake, I had a super fabulous time!!!!

Bear Lake

This last week our little family went up camping to Bear Lake.  This is something I have done every year for the longest time.  It started out that my family and all of my Mom's family would go up.  My cousins still go but we haven't been with them for several years.  The last several years it turned into a Cutright family trip.  So us and Jake's parents and siblings go up.  We wanted to have some alone time before everyone else came up, so we headed up on Tuesday and the rest of the family joined us on Thursday and Friday.

Marshall and Kambria playing at the beach

 Kambria loves the water, she is a water baby.  No fear in tht girl at all.

 Marshall loves to be burried in the sand.  We did that all day.

 I think Kambria had 50+ gogurts during our trip.

 Jake is so handsome, and such a great husband.  I loved being with him at Bear Lake.  We had such a fun week.  Relaxing on the beach watching the kids, throwing the frisbee, diving in the water, having mud fights and just 6 days of no interuptions.

 Love my Marshall.

 The kids playing in the water.

 Cadence, Brianna and Kambria.  They are all within 2 months of each other and have such a good time playing!!

 We put the kids to bed and then went out and played cards.  It was so much fun.  When we came back in Kambria was asleep holding a piece of hair on each side, it was so funny I had to take a picture.

 Lilly caught a frog, they went home so the rest of us took it to the lake to let it go.  I was amazed that my kids dared to hold it. 

 Our family!!

 My parents have had wave runners for a long time, last year they sold them.  Jakes Lt. bought them and we rented them from him this year.  They were a blast.  The 3 person tube was so much fun and so many memories were made out on that thing.  I have never laughed so hard watching Kim's legs going up and own so straight. 

 Marshall and Kam made hand puppets and then did a puppet show for me.  They also made bead animal keychains shown in the picture.

We had such a fun relaxing time, it was hard to come home to reality knowing that Jake has a few super busy months ahead of him!!!

ZOO

A few weeks ago the kids and I went to the Zoo with the Moss'.  It was a lot of fun.  We haven't been to the zoo in forever.  Kambria and Brianna just love each other and had so much fun.  Marshall loves Addy and Connor as well and had a blast.  And I loved talking with Lisa.  It was a great day!!

Trials

We all have different trials in our lives, I understand that.  I know that trials make us grow, and make us stronger.  I am thankful that my trials are minimal compared to others that I have seen, but I still don't like them.  As most people know, our biggest trial has been trying to have kids.  When we were dating and first married we had decided that 4 kids would be perfect.  After it was so hard for me to get pregnant and all the drama with Marshall's delivery and knowing each one after would be via C-section we decided 3 kids would be perfect.  It took us a very long time to get pregnant with Kambria and we were just thankful that we were able to have 2 kids.  Since having Kambria I have really felt like their was one more baby out there for us, but I really didn't want to go on clomid again.  In the past 3.5 years I have done 3 different rounds of clomid.  meaning I have been on clomid for 6 months, went off then back on then off etc.  This last time was just recently.  I really felt like I needed to give it one more try.  I started with some herbal medicine.  Our insurance had changed so I couldn't see my previous Dr.  I was super sad about that, he knew me, he knew my struggles, he understood me, he cared about me and he was so caring.  The first Dr I went to had been recommended by a few friends.  He was a jerk.  He didn't care at all, he didn't listen, he didn't care about my past.  He wanted me to start from square one.  I left so disappointed, and so frustrated and cried for what seemed like forever.  We weren't telling anyone that we were trying, so other then Jake I had no one to talk to and cry to.  Then I went to a different Dr.  He was so nice and was willing to just let me start clomid but wouldn't start me on double like my previous, oh well at least he was nice and cared.  So for several months I have took clomid and no luck.  So if I have been ornery, moody, or rude to you, I am sorry .... that was the reason.  That medicine is not fun.  It makes me gain weight, get lots of zits and I am soooooo moody.  It truly is a relationship killer and my family pays for it dearly. 

It is crazy though, we prayed that whatever was right would happen this time a round and that at the end of it we would feel at peace with the results.  I was nervous to get pregnant and start over again.  I had sold all of my baby/maternity stuff.  I was also anxious and thought I would be depressed if it didn't happen.  So we said we will try faithfully for X amount of months and then no matter what we will be done.  We did so, and we are 100% content with our 2 wonderful children.  I am so thankful that I was blessed with the two kids that I do have.  When I realized I wasn't pregnant, I was fine, I wasn't disappointed, I wasn't angry, I was at peace.  It was a great feeling and now we can move on with our little family and stop all the what ifs.